Amir Vahedi: “You must be willing to die in order to live”

by ~ July 15th, 2008. Filed under: Bankroll, Philosophy and approach, Super turbos.

Why am I so nitty about my bankroll sometimes? Since I was forced to cash out one site when it got shut down, I’ve cashed out more than I’ve ever deposited, so the money that I do still have on-line at PokerStars and at Full Tilt is all poker earnings/winnings. Recently I’ve taken some stabs at taking my play from the super turbos to multitable/short-stack $25NL with unsustainably good results on both sites, and yet I’m really hesitant to play.

My super turbo ROI has been brought down to human levels now after a long series of non-cashes which offset the 28% ROI I had hit after playing 60. Any downswing like this undermines my confidence to some degree on some level and this probably contributes to my fear of playing more. But I don’t know if it’s more fear of losing money, or just fear of losing that is more the issue.

The saying attributed to poker pro Amir Vahedi, “you must be willing to die in order to live” has to be a part of any poker player’s approach to the game, and right now that doesn’t seem to be part of my attitude. I’m willing to do so in super turbos, but because of the downswing I’m trying to restrict the number of games that I play in any one day.

I know that I definitely am not in the mindset to grind ring games with a full stack right now. The time and mental focus is beyond my mental energy levels. Maybe it’s just summer; the warmth and sunny evenings and bright mornings that sap my sleeping habits and energy levels. I can remember back to my first summer of poker, playing play money tournaments, lying on the sofa, my old laptop on my stomach, still trying to figure out the basics of the game.

Maybe I just wanna play super turbos, but because of my downswing I don’t allow myself to play too many, so I end up not playing as much as I would like to play.

Or maybe in summer, I’m just not willing enough to die 🙂

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2 Responses to Amir Vahedi: “You must be willing to die in order to live”

  1. Poker Farce

    No need to play at the monster stakes. Once you move above the $100NL tables it sometimes is not worth the jump to the next level. I prefer to play at a lot of those $25 tables just because I’ve taken so many shots in the past and not done well.

  2. PokerAnon

    No disagreement from me about playing levels. But when I wrote this entry, I just wasn’t playing. My poker confidence was down with the super turbos, which is what I had been playing at the time, and I couldn’t bring myself to go to the cash tables.

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